the real happiness. 09-20-05

happiness is not getting what you want, coz there are exceptions
it doesnt count　on how much we have
on how many relationships came to us if its like quantity but no quality
its not how much you give or how much given.
or be weigh by the success we have if we are empty
happiness is life but they dont desame
happiness is just a factor.
its not how many books you read if you dont learn
or being a good chef but only few can taste
its not how further you explain if its countless
its not how good you are in writting if only few can understand
its not how good we speak if no one listen
its not how sharp our minds but we dont have the heart
or how talented we are but we doesnt have the guts.
happiness is sadness, it happens everytime.
sometime we get blinded but it makes us happy.
we can be happy in our own ways.
do good if you want to be happy, be contended, and accept who you are and what you have.
just keep going and be happy :-A

whats your new years resolution?

i wanna say happy new year to everyone. maybe most of you are preparing for the coming of new year. and we also. actually we are ready. whats your present this new year eve?
I'm happy right now because i dont have a job today so i could celebrate with my family.
wait! whats your new years resolution? maybe most of you have their own. but me. what i wish for myself is to become healthier and my family too. so i might be more carefull and consious to my health. also prosperity and goodluck. happy new year everyone

book of life ...2005

many people says that our life is like a book. it has begining and it has an end. sometimes sad stories but most are happy ending. there is love, drama, action?, fantasy. we can also say that we can learn a lot from here. it nourish our minds. awaken us to whats happening around. it gives inspiration. it gives knowledge. we also use them as the basis in our daily lives. in conclusion, life have something in common with books.
but as i notice, its oakward to reality. books are created perfectly. before they publish, they undergo to a long process.
life is not a book that you can edit, erase, skip or remake it from the start. the author is the one who controls the story. he's the one who gives life to his creation.
life is reality, we controls our lives. we follow our destiny, we make a story and we do the history. weather its bad or happy. but we're trying to have a good one.
there are few people who can share their stories but they doesn't reveal and show all coz they're hiding their bad stories. they doesn't want the reader to get offended or say bad comments coz their intention is to give inspiration. still its not perfect.
i cannot say that my life is worst because i know each moment of my life i become a better person, a better me. theres a lot of chances came to my life but i lost them coz im holding for what i believing and i cannot take them back. well it's part of my "sad stories".
if we could only choose a life that we wanted. a life that we dreamed of. a life that will make us happy and will make us satisfied. like choosing a book we want to read.
if life could be just a book that u can get started
if life could be just a story from a book that u can edit and erase, that you can control and do the extremes.
in this world that we are moving on, we are not the main character. and all we can do is to do our part to the fullest. and we cannot deny our mistakes we've done. all we can do is to move on and recover.
and if life could be just a book. maybe most of us will buy their own and they will choose the best one. and i know what book it would be. a book that has happy ending...
if only...

whos the loneliest person on christmas?

merry christmas everybody, now its 2 hours more to go and were welcoming christmas. everybody is excited bout christmas. i look outside the house and everybody is happy and lot of people are present. singin their videoke while tossing their alcoholic beverages. doing a "happy-happy" is everywhere.
but whos the loneliest person this christmas.
well i don't know. coz im lonely too. my mother and brother are in the province to celebrate the season and i did'nt go with them because tommorrow morning ill be on work. this is one of my saddest christmas.
i am stayin at my boarding house. and im in a cafe right now.
im thinkin of my sister abroad, my grandmother, my mother and brother too. how are they? me im fine but feel sad because were not together.
but its ok for me. as what i saying, as long as were healthy its ok. and i dont look to my situation right now that im sad, a lonely christmas. i think of a lighter side that there are more people who are lonelier and sad this christmas.
those people who had lost their love ones. people that are dying with their disease, those beggars and outcast. and those people who are going through difficulties.
most of you feel the spirit of christmas, and be thankful coz we have a merrier christmas than these other people. and always remember that we are luckier than them. may we have all a better christmas since we have a lot of chaoz in this world.
merry christmas everyone.

i wanna say merry christmas to everybody

you know guys its more than a week since ive been here. and i really love writing my thoughts here and sharing part of my life.
i just wanna say how lucky i am, god did'nt gave me everything that the world can offer. but he gave me a lot of reasons to thank him. im not a straight person but im thankful coz he thought me that the world has lot to offer. i realized that this world that we living with lots of chaos and confusions has other face.
i dont have the material things and i cant buy my dreams but im happy. i will choose to poor than to be richer but weaker. i will choose to be like me than to become a criminal of the society. i will choose to live a simpler life just to be with my family. i will choose to be the weakest among than to become the most intelligent but not happy.
i dont know who reads my blog and those who reads doesn't know about me but i wanna say that im glad coz somehow you have time reading some of mine. i thank you to that and i hope i could meet some of you here.
hmm! its nice to live in this world.
peace on earth this season!!! merry christmas.

just this morning

i woke up 7 am this morning. i look at the mirror and i saw some lines below my eyes. and i come to realize that im getting older. i think of those years passed and ask myself. where am i now? and i answered it automatically. im just still the same person before. the thing is i continue learning and become a better person.
im just 25 now, but im thinkin what might happened if i turned 40 plus. i could'nt say what would happen to me. because my plans are oakward to my destiny. i just surrender it from above. what i can do is to act mature. and do things to the fullest.
now im going to work at 2pm. its so tiring but its ok.
anyway christmas is coming very very soon.

my first caroling

you know guys, maybe most of you tried to sing a christmas carol, but have you try going to every house sing for christmas carols for some money. i think most of you dont. here in my country it is a tradition to start caroling from december 16 to 25. christmas is the longest holiday here. everybody is in rush. the markets have lots of peoples. everybody is excited with their christmas bonus, parties, double pays, 13 month pay, exchange gift. everybody is preparing for the coming of christmas. theres a lot of parols and christmas lights in most of the house you will see. a christmas three and anything that symbolizes christmas

i was 6 years old that time when i first joined my friend to carol in every house. i could still remember he's name. and im 25 now. he gave me a intsrument made from crowns of bottles and wire. and he has a drum made from a big can he put a thick plastic through the hole of the can thightened with many rubber bands.

i coud'nt remember the first house we caroled. what i remembered clearly was i never memorized the songs he sing, i just following him though tune.LOL

and we collect 30 pesos, and we divided it . and when i got home, my uncle is looking for me. they did'nt know where i am. i just forgot to ask permission.

im back again

it was saturday since i wrote my last blog. well i was busy with my job and there a conflict with my schedule to work and priorities thats why. well today i still have a work to do. im planning to move to another job next year. i want to come back to real estate. but im afraid to go coz theres no assurance with that kind of job. you really need a patient and dedication to that kind of job. and again, a lot of patient.
i am really confuse what job to apply coz i want a big income. can anyone help me to find those. LOL

well anyway christmas is coming few days from now. i want to greet you all a merry christmas. i hope there will be peace on earth, good health, good career and long life.

christmas is coming but...

when i was a kid, i always feel excited when Christmas is coming. our family gather together. my grandparents, my uncles, aunties, cousins and every part of the family are together. theres a game for us children. and the foods they prepared. i also expecting Santa for my gift. but it seems just a dream, anyway. every neighbors feels the same . were waiting for some fireworks and noise. everybody are happy and wishing for good luck for the coming year.
but its different now. if ill be emotional and sentimental, i might be crying right now coz i feel sad and its very different now. my family are apart from each other. specially my sister who stays in other country for quite a long time. she might be staying there for good and shell just be visiting us once a year. were now 4 in the family. me, brother, mother and sister who's apart from us. my father is separated from my mother 5 years ago for some big difficulties. this Christmas, i might not join my family to celebrate the season coz i might be on duty that time. i know my mother might feel sad and i know every christmas she cry because were not a complete family. we lived a simpler life but im longing for something else, the happiness that i felt before.

i want to resign

i was really sleepy and tired today coz i had a straight duty yesterday. starting 2pm up to 11am today. and it was my rest day today. I'm getting stressed to my work because of so many things. they didn't pay my overtime, and its all charity. i want to transfer to other store really. giving a hour duty without pay. its really unfair! what can you say. my co-employee are nice people. their kind but in terms of work. some are not responsible and some have their own interest. i just ignoring it all but im tired of working to a place like these. really, i hope i could find ways here.

im having a hard time here,

actually i'm updating my profile. look for some things to make my profile readable, likeable and look better. but i think im so fool. im not getting better here. im so confused to url, and everything. but im not surrendering. i hope i could found it. have a nice day everyone

just dropping by

its been a week since i get back here because i was sick. and i miss a lot from you guys. i just came from work right now. and i got here into a cafe to visit my emails. and to put some blogs for you guys. i miss a lot really. i getting better now. but i had a hematoma on my risk because of the needle put to me when i was on the hospital. terrible. i have a lot here. tommorow i might back there to ask for a medical certificate coz my manager needs it. because i was leave for job for almost a week.

im just doing some changes

because im new here, im starting to study all the details of my profile. hope you like it. am making it better and better everytime i go online. i promise that.

while on the hospital

im really afraid coz it was my first time to be admitted to a hospital. but my stay there was a lesson, an experience for me that life is very important. we must value our life. we must be thankful that we breath, that we given a chance to live normal and be contended for what everything we have.
while i was on the E.R. many patients seeks attention to few doctors and nurses. some of them are between life and death. needs to revive and needs to live. their relatives are crying and begging for doctors to help them save the life of their love ones. and its very painful to me to see those things in my eyes. i feel sad to every live's taken. although i don't know them, sympathized with how they feel. its really sad.

its possitive

the last time i was here i was waiting for the result of my laboratory if i was positive on dengue fever and i was. the doctor told me that i need to admit to the hospital immediately. so i was very worried bout my condition. my bloodcount drop to 115, while the normal is 150-500. it was my very first time to admit to the hospital. and no one is there to help me. coz my mother is away from me and i think i could handle my situation. but i was really worried.
its also my first time being dextrosed. im afraid to needles but i passed it. every 6 hours i go back to the laboratory to get some blood from me. to observe my blood count. and its very stressing for me really.
i was so happy i was out of the hospital. and now im back to my work.

my beginning

hi to everyone, i am sick today, actually im here outside the hospital waiting for the result of my laboratory. i suspect i have a dengue. im a little scared coz it might affect my work. its been two days since i leave to work. i hope ill be fine soon.
well hi to everyone i hope i could find lots of friends here. lets share thoughts and ideas. im just a normal person who lives in a very simple life. but im happy, as long as my family are ok and healthy, ill be too.im open-minded in most aspects of life. and as a simple person. my thoughts are not so wide. just wanna try everything as long as i live. im not a lucky person but i keep trying and moving. i dont have my own house and car but i can live independent for now. i didnt experience traveling the whole world but im contended just knowing them through internet and some books. well thats life. we have differences, we have uniqueness. im just so thankful and feel great about all the things that i have.

bless us all!!